Chapter 28. Happy birthday to me!

I love referring to birthday’s as chapters in life. They truly are, aren’t they? If you’re like me, you keep a journal and enjoy looking back at what you’ve overcome.

I love to document. Whether through journal entry, pictures, you name it! I think capturing moments in life, whether good or bad, and being able to reflect is necessary.

This year of life and even the year of 2019 thus far has been tumultuous, eye opening, exciting, heart breaking, and exhilarating ALL at the same time! I know it sounds crazy, with us only being in the Spring, but I have learned so much about myself in the season of life!

Right now, I’m keeping this verse close to my heart. Its a beautiful reminder that when we “think” we have life figured out, we have to remember that our life is not our own, it never was, and thats the beauty of living your life to the fullest, while remaining strong in faith!

Pslam 139:16 | You saw me before I was born. Every day of my life was recorded in your book. Every moment was laid out, before a single day had passed.

Along with that verse are 3 life lessons that I have experienced and learned from!

  • Self care is NOT selfish – In 2019, I took a HUGE step in my self discovery journey and went to therapy. It was exciting and scary for me. I never frowned upon therapy or those who sought it out, I just never felt that “I” needed it. I’ve always been the type of person who “figured it out”… “could handle anything”.. and low and behold over years of succumbing to that mindset I hit a point in life where I couldn’t “figure it out”.. and “I couldn’t handle it” and all that seemed to make sense was to talk to someone about everything. I went through an experience that felt like a repeated scenario and rather than sulking in what happened, I said ” what am I suppose to learn from this..” and that mindset… those words … lead me to therapy and well on my self care journey! Trust me, looking out for yourself mentally, physically, and emotionally is FAR from selfish.

  • YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL – I can’t tell you how many times I tell myself this. Not because I am vain, but because everyday we, as women, wake up and step out into the world , where we are inudated with images of perfection, expectations, decisions, ALL on top of our own thoughts and realities. While somewhere in all of that, we should be confident and fearless and … on our “Beyonce”. Sorry y’all, at 28, I can say I feel like “Beyonce” in waves ha ha Someday you’ll catch me in my element feeling “flawless” and some days I am in a dark place , eating ice cream, and playing love songs on repeat. Hey! its about balance, right? I realized reassuring yourself is a beautiful thing, allowing yourself to feel great and not so great is healthy, and doing so has helped me to no longer seek validation from others. Its all about your energy sis, its POWERFUL. If you are positive and keeping that energy flowing within it will also show outwardly and attract.

  • KEEP FAITH – Throughout my life, faith was a focal point. At 28, I turn to faith often for daily motivation. I’ve always been passionate about my relationship with Christ and wanting to help others through faith. At this point in my life, I know that no matter what happens, circling back to the SOURCE helps sooo much!

I spent my birthday month celebrating, traveling, and surrounding myself with friends and loved ones. I needed that! I went to Puerto Rico and loved every second of it and spent my birthday saying prayers of thanks and asking God to continue revealing His plans for me. So that I can use this chapter in life to bring His vision to life.

What life lesson have you learned so far this year?